Hi everyone, LOOOL how random is this?!
Just thought i’d blog today about pretty much everything. Only because im bored ofcourse, lalalallalalalalaaaaaaaaa. So here I am, tumblring my life away, infact my ‘young’ days as my mother would like to point out. Weathers a bit shit outside, we basically never get any sun here waaaaaaaaaaaaaa lets all cry for London. Its weird cos tbh people that dont live in London are always banging on about how we’re the lucky ones and how it always seems to rain everywhere but in London. Prime example of the quote ‘you dont know what its like to be in my shoes’, always plodding along in bloody puddles for fucks sake. Anyway, loads of things have been happening in my life lately, I have been going through many transitions and I am eagerly awaiting the moment my life goes POOF! and gets a whole lot better. I know it sounds ungrateful, because at the end of the day i have a lovely family, supportive friends, a decent wardrobe, I have good health alhamdullilah, food to eat and a house I do adore. LOL.
Strange though, cos today whilst I was eating my lunch I started to question myself; ‘am i actually sitting here, thinking about this and convincing myself that im not content with life?’ i have it so easy compared to other people, im such a douche for thinking like this. I wonder what children that are less privalleged worry about? surely not boy problems. Im sure their boots are filled with anxiety and their mind full of daunting questions. Will their fridge ever be full? are their parents getting divorced? do they have a life threatning medical disease? idk. I started to feel guilty after that. Then i realised that although in the big scheme on things it may appear ungrateful, i am human after day and what affects me in my life is just different and I should pay attention to what im feeling cos lets be honest, theres no ignoring it LOL.
A Lesson learnt out of all of my thoughts today though; nothing can actually be helped. I suppose everything does happen for a reason, waiting to find out what the reason is can be a bit annoying but we all just have to have faith and patience, what will be - will be. I know that at times it can all be a bit frustrating and you start to think is life ever gonna get better (me atm) but i have 100% faith that Allah has already taken care of the future. Everything is written and leasons are to be learned and as the typical saying goes ‘One day you’ll look back on this and laugh’ LOOOOL, im sure i wont be laughing but atleast i would have learnt and developed a few more skills to (inshallah) see me through the tunnel and make it to the brighter side.
You could say i believe in fate, i really do think (and know infact,) that people will walk in and out of your life like its the bathroom. But the people that come back are ussually the people that will stay. Because they wouldnt come for nothing, life has either caused them to cross paths with you again FOR A REASON so dont lose faith thinking youve hit rock bottom when a few people drop out, cos if they dont come back they were never worth it.
Ive proper gone off on one havent i :s, i waffle on about so much shit i hope all of this makes sense! enough of this now, back to my life (jk i dont have one, jk i do :s )
BYE EVERYONEEEEEEEEEEE HOPE YOU ENJOYED WASTING A FEW MINS OF YOUR LIFE READING MY RUBBISH